Posted by: Sonya | August 18, 2009

[lovelyblog.jpg]

I feel so special right now! Chubby Chick from Journey to lose 200lbs: The Triumph of Perseverance just gave me an award!

Thank you soooo much especially since I just started writing again about a month ago. I’m so touched.

I’m going to cheat a bit and not list 15 people as I’m suppose to in this post. Instead I’m going to direct you to my blogroll as I just updated it TODAY (I swear) to include more lovely blogs that I enjoy reading. Please check them out if you haven’t already. They are written by amazing women and men who make me feel everyday that I am not alone in my struggles to get thin and get healthy!

Thank you so much once again Chubby Chick. I am so thankful we found each other in blog land!

1 Comment

Posted in Uncategorized | Tags:

Posted by: Sonya | August 17, 2009

Tasty Timmy and the BMI

 

iced coffee

We Canadians love our Tim Hortons. For those Americans that read my blog and don’t know what Tim Hortons is…..well, shame on you! Let’s just say if you come to Canada and don’t have a Tim Horton’s Coffee you haven’t ‘truly’ experienced a huge part of our culture. lol…. Canadians are obsessed with their Timmy’s.  If you drive by a Tim Horton’s in Ontario you will be guaranteed to see a huge line up at the drive through – pretty much any time of the day.  It’s a tad crazy I agree.

Tim Horton’s has recently come out with a “Iced Coffee” and dear god I am addicted! I use to love the Iced Cap, but now I’m all about the Iced Coffee…Yummmmmm. It’s so good. Of course though, if it taste good, it’s probably not good for you, so I finally looked up the nutritional information and here are the results…

One Large Ice Coffee = 260 cal, 11g Fat, 0 Fibre

Freak’in sucks….but there is something that I can do to reduce those calories and that fat. What is that? ASK FOR MILK NOT CREAM!!!!!! Stupid, Stupid, Stupid….why have I  not been asking? I ALWAYS ask for milk over cream with my Iced Caps, but I’ve never asked with the Iced Coffee. Well guess what? I sure as hell am going to ask now!

Large Iced Coffee made with Milk  (NOT CREAM) = 170 Cal, 1.5 g of Fat, 0 Fibre.

What a difference in the fat content, eh? Crazy! It would be even less if I started asking for a medium. I couldn’t only have a small. They are just too tiny ;-)

On another topic, I was reading blogs (as I often do when working night shifts) and someone had wrote  (sorry I can’t remember now who it was )  to be considered overweight they would have to lose X amount of weight.

Well for myself to be considered overweight (Man, how depressing to be striving to be overweight) I need to lose……..

37.5 lbs

I know what you’re thinking…okay maybe not. Either you’re thinking, “Wow, that’s a shit load of weight” or you’re thinking “alot of people have it worse off than that”. Regardless though, it still sucks bum and big bum at that! I can lose this weight though. I know I can…hell, I’ve done it before, so that’s got to account for something!  

6 Comments

Posted in Product Reviews, food

Posted by: Sonya | August 16, 2009

Finally Moving the Caboose

Imagine a living room. Imagine a carpet  in that living room. Imagine a wii. Now imagine some fancy panties. Put them together and you have a girl standing on her carpet in her living room using her Wii  in her underwear! Panties, you ask? Yup that’s right ladies, I was working out using ‘Wii Active” in my underwear. Why just my panties? Well….I was  alone,  it was hot, and really dudes, why get clothes all sweaty when you don’t have to?

Wii Activehas been kicking my (out of shape) butt for the last two days. I finally said it was time to get my ass moving and I actually have started to!  Amazing isn’t it? I know, I’m shocking myself! I bought the Wii, and Wii active a couple of months ago, but really didn’t get into it. I had those same good intentions, but no follow through. Since starting to write on my blog again and since reading inspirational blogs like yours (yes I’m talking about yours!) again I have become more and more motivated to make changes in my life. To that I am thankful! You all have no idea how much you have helped.

This time around it feels different. Finally this time I am doing it for the right reasons. I’m no longer doing this for vanity sake. I’m doing it for my health.  I need to and I finally want to. I’m starting to feel better already. As I say this however my legs are so sore – and my butt! (damn freak’in ass lunges…can I tell you how I loath them?), but as my computerized personal trainer says, my body will thank me. My mind on the other hand is cursing me – repeatedly. I will continue with my training though. No matter what. 

You will notice that I also added two new ‘pages’ to my blog. First an exercise Log and a food diary.  I thought I might as well monitor both online. I’m not counting calories or counting points, so I’m still probably eating ‘too much’. This is partly because I’m PMSing and I’m freak’in hungry all the time right now, and partially because I’m a girl who has streatched out her stomach to the size of Canada so it will take time to shrink it down again. I’m taking this journey VERY slow this time. Baby Step by Baby step. So each thing I do no matter now small they are I am proud of regardless if I lose weight or not this week. I am proud that I have made these changes. I do see progress and that’s all that matters. I’m heading in the right direction.

3 Comments

Posted in Exercise

Posted by: Sonya | August 13, 2009

524 in 365

I’m feeling very inspired and very high on caffeine – thank you jumbo diet coke! Tonight I went and saw the movie Julie and Julia with a dear friend of mine. I thought it might be cute, but other than that I had no expectations. I have to say – I. loved. it.

I  feel like I could somehow related to Julie (who is actually a real person, not just a character). I do not work at a government secretarial job, or are married. I have not cooked all of Julia Child’s recipes in a year. To be honest, I didn’t even know who Julia Child was until I heard about this movie.   I am a woman however , like Julie, who just turned thirty, blogs and feels  like everything she starts she never follows through with.

Julie used her blog as a way of changing that (among other reasons). She had a goal and no matter how hard it was she stuck to it . At the end of the year I’m sure she was very proud and reeked the benefits from finishing. Good for her, I say. Good for her.

Some movies make me think for long periods afterwards. This was one of them. I was thinking so hard, I drove past my street not once, but twice when coming home! Julie cooked 524 recipes in 365 days. What have I done in 365 days?  More importantly, what could I do in 365 days? What goals could I make to accomplish? I have to say weight loss was not one of the things I first thought about.  My first thought (and I still might do it) was to create a blog where I do 524 things I’ve never done before in 365 days. For now though, the only blog I have is this one.

This blog is suppose to be about having my “eyes on the hourglass”. The hourglass being my desired sexy figure, but also a timer as I often feel time is running out for me to getter done. I remember turning 25 saying that the next quarter of my life was going to be better than the first. Well 5 years have gone by and nothings really changed. Now I’m 30, and I don’t want my 30s to be like my 20s.   As a result, perhaps a ‘goal’ of sorts is necessary. It would have to be one that I am determined to stick to and could reach though. I’m not sure what that would look like yet. Perhaps you do and could help me?  Weight loss is so damn hard and I wish it was easy. I hate that I have a weight problem and suck at weight loss. Gurrrr.

Leave a Comment

Posted in Challenge, Goals, dieting, food

Posted by: Sonya | August 13, 2009

Baby Steps

I wrote down everything I ate yesterday. Everything. Today I will do the same. I’m not counting points yet, but I feel like I’m getting closer and closer to ‘being ready’ to do some hard core dieting that is so desperately needed.

The points system has worked in the past, but not in the long term for me – ever. That is why I’m still hesitating. Also despite the fact I had a healthy meal for breakfast (banana, cottage cheese mixed with yogart and OJ to drink), I know I would feel guilty for eating it, because if I did the “point” math it would be 8 points (I think – it’s been awhile). Usually when doing WW, I’d try to keep it to three points for breakfast. I shouldn’t feel guilty for eating a fantastic breakfast! Hell, I use to eat two eggs coated in butter with cheese and mayo on toast. I think I”m doing much better, thank you very much. With that being said though, I know I still have a long way to go.

As I continue to make changes, I also plan to weigh myself every Thursday. I have to say the scale hasn’t been part of my life in a very long time and perhaps this is why I ended up putting on all the weight I lost – plus more. I just didn’t care to weigh myself. I wasn’t avoiding it. I just didn’t care. Well….it’s time I did. It’s time I gave a shit again (there I go again). It’s time a pay attention to how much I weigh and adjust my eating habits accordingly. I have to, I need to.

So this morning I stepped on the scale and weighed 251.5lbs. Yup, I was up 1.5 pounds from my last WI on July 21st. Does it suck to have to tell you that? Of course. Am I devestated by it? Nope, because regardless of what the scale says I know I am making healthier choices to feed my body. Now I just have to get my bubble butt moving! I have a treadmill that Cookie was given from her parents sitting in my basement (as Cookie is currently living with me). Perhaps I’ll try to use that today. No wait. I WILL use that today.

3 Comments

Posted in Exercise, Non-scale Victory, Weigh In, dieting, food

Posted by: Sonya | August 12, 2009

Belly Blues

Warning – this post might contain some info that would have people saying  ”Gross….too much information”.

Constipation. It sucks. If you have been ‘following me’ for awhile you’ll know I’ve been having stomach issues for some time.  In May they got VERY bad. Bloating and constipation which had me running to the drug store to pick up an enema at 12:30am as I felt like I was going to vomit I was so plugged. Sadly the enema didn’t even work.

I made a doctors appointment right away and had an xray. Yup, I was full of shit. The doctor put me on a bowel routine like a senior citizen which helped, but not really.  It was horrible.  I had an ultrasound (internal even) and nothing was found other than informing me I had a fatty liver (oh joy). I then went for a colonoscopy mid-July and  I swore  they would tell me I had a polyp which was causing my many issues, but nope, the lovely nurse informed me I didn’t – I was like WHAT??? ARE YOU SERIOUS???? WTF?????  Imagine being upset  you DIDN’T have a polyp? Well, that was me. I mean, I would much rather have someone tell me something was wrong, fix it  fix it and be better again, then this ‘oh dear, you’re fine’ when I know I am not!

Since the Prep for the colonoscopy I have been better – that sucker cleaned me out! But I’m not normal. I still need to take laxatives once and awhile and the bloating can be brutal. I often feel like I’ve got a baby inside! The worse cause senario is that I’m going to be told I have irritable bowel, and to suck it up. Oh that would be brutal, but I have a feeling that is where I’m heading.

It’s weird though. When I was up at the trailer last week. I felt good. The bowels were okay and I had hardly any bloating. I was eating balanced meals but not ‘diet’ stuff really. I’d have an egg and toast for breakfast, a hot dog for lunch and meat and potatoes with veggies for dinner. I’d then have a treat at nice. It might have been marshmallows near the fire, or chips in front of the TV. Still though…hardly any issues.

I come home and then BOOM…issues. The stomach goes insane and dear god the bloating and HEARTBURN. It’s weird because  my diet didn’t even really change. So it’s sooo hard to pin point what effects the bloating and what doesn’t.  I feel like I could eat one thing one day and be fine and the next I feel like I’m 9 months preggers. It’s kind of annoying. I know I’m totally lactose intolerant. Sadly, I love milk products so sometimes I just deal with the consequences and other times I take my lactate pills. I have taken probiotics in the past. The expensive ‘health food store” ones seemed to help better than the costco brand I’m on now so I might switch back. I also was taking digestive enzymes but i’m not sure they did anything.

Anyway, the reason I’m saying all this that I think even though I hate it, it’s time that I record what I eat again. This way I can hopefully try and figure out what the heck is causing all the issues. Dairy? Sugar? Wheat? Who knows at this point. I have a follow-up with the gastroenterologist so hopefully he’ll be able to help me out more.

So day one of writing things down is today. I’m still not ready to ‘count’ points, but I’m one step closer, and this time I’m doing it for my health!

2 Comments

Posted in My Health

Posted by: Sonya | August 10, 2009

Back from Bliss

I’m back! Boy, I’m getting tired of saying that. This time though I was only away because I was enjoying being part of a wedding and then I went up north (three hours north of where I live) to relax at my parents resort (a.k.a – trailer).

The wedding was soooo amazing and I’m telling you they must have had a horse shoe up their bums because it rained Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, was sunny and beautiful on Saturday, and then rained again on Sunday and Monday. Someone answered their prayers for sure as it was a completely outdoor wedding! Yes, they had a tent…but still.  The rainstorms we have been getting it could have blown the tent away and taken the bride with it!  Come to think of it, if it did rain and destroy the tent and the bride went flying, I could have had video proof and submitted it to some crazy TV show and I could have won $10 000. Damn, why didn’t it rain?

Seriously though, The food was of course delicious and I did indulge perhaps just a bit too much, but I always tell myself anything is better than Taco bell, Pizza, Micky D’s, Burger King and even Subway at this point. I’m sure I put on a few pounds, but I ate really balanced meals at the trailer (apart from a few late night snacks) so hopefully it evens itself out.

The weather has been the pits here in Ontario (as you might have guessed from above) so my time at the trailer was just O.K. I introduced my parents to the fun of geocaching and started to read Twilight. I use to roll my eyes at all those people reading that book and think “oh how lame” Well…. I’m totally eating my words. Foolish, foolish girl I was.  I loved the book and read it in two days! Considered it’s found in the youth section I suppose that’s not all that impressive.  I’m now half way through NEW MOON.  When I found out it was about vampires and my friend loved it I gave in. You see vampires are my new thing…Okay well…perhaps it’s just the thought of someone feeding on my neck for once, but I do have this new love for them since I started watching TRUE BLOOD. That show is freak’n amazing!!!! I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE it!!! Thank you HBO, blockbuster and greatstufftv.com (as this girl does not have super cable with all the fancy channels). It doesn’t surprise me as I loved Six Feet Under too and the makers of that show created True Blood.

Anyway, I thought I’d share a few pictures from the wedding. Until Next time – Enjoy!

Me, Myself and I

Me, Myself and IMy friend Hook (nickname for her on here) and I
Sarah and IAll the friends together with “Feather” the bride

Friends

Cookie and I

IMG_2706

Feather and her new Husband with classic beer in hand.

Feather and husband

Feather as happy as ever with another beer in hand (which is funny considering she hardly ever drinks).

Feather

2 Comments

Posted in Friends, Pictures, Product Reviews, Reading, food

Posted by: Sonya | July 31, 2009

I’m here

Don’t worry folks, I’m still here. I’m just getting preparing for a wedding I’m in on Saturday. I’m MOH. I’m looking forward to it. We had the dress rehearsal tonight and I shed some tears…god help me on the big day. I’m such a cry baby at weddings.

I’m not the weight I sent out to be for this wedding although I am 10 pounds lighter.  Really I could care less though. I’m just going to look the best I can and enjoy the day. I got told I looked very beautiful today….this is probably because I actually did my hair today (most days I wear it in a pony) so that was nice. A girl has to have some sort of ego boost once and awhile. See this “giving a poo”  thing is working out for me!

2 Comments

Posted in Uncategorized

Posted by: Sonya | July 28, 2009

Another Reason to Care

I need to start avoiding these foods more often. This heartburn is killing me.

  • Chocolate
  • Peppermint
  • Fried and fatty foods
  • Tomato products
  • Foods and drinks that contain caffeine
  • Alcoholic beverages.
  • Onions
  • Garlic
  • Mustard
  • Certain spices
  • Vinegar
  • Carbonated beverages (such as soda)
  • Citrus fruits and juices.

Leave a Comment

Posted in food

Posted by: Sonya | July 27, 2009

Getting Over Myself

I wore a thong on Saturday…just a thong!

No,  I wasn’t doing exercises nude in my house again. I actually went to a placed called “Body Blitz Spa” in Toronto, and can I just tell you it was AMAZING!!!!!! If you live in the GTA – RUN. THERE. NOW!!!!!

Body Blitz is Canada’s first authentic water spa for women. I took one of my friends there for her 30th birthday/bachelorette gift and boy it was sooooooo wonderful.

We ended up soaking in three different pools (sea salt, cold plunging pool, and a green tea pool) along with using their sauna and aromatherapy steam room. That alone was relaxing enough after an hour (that’s how long it takes you to do the circuit). After the pools my friend feathers (the name I’ll use for her on here) enjoyed a 60 min massage and I had a 60 min Moroccan scrub! Oh man…I wasn’t sure what to expect with the scrub, and when they called the day before and said I needed to be naked expect for a disposable thong I just about died. I mean, of course you’d need to be naked for them to do the scrub treatment, but until that point, I hadn’t really thought about it. I managed just fine though. You really just have to “get over yourself” and enjoy the experience. Take all those body image issues and toss them out the window. It was surprisingly easy – okay sort of. I mean…the professionals who provide these treatments see millions of woman’s bodies every day, all day. I’m sure they could care less what my body looks like. I might care, but they don’t…and that’s all that I have to remind myself – a few times. Feathers said we should treat ourselves again at Christmas and go back. I said I couldn’t wait that long and instead I will treat myself at Thanksgiving! Thank goodness thanksgiving is in October here in Canada!!!! Spa, here I come.

On Sunday I went to get my hair cut and coloured along with an eyebrow wax as well. I really needed to get them done because I’m in Feathers wedding on Saturday and need to look my best! Needless to say I had a very pampered weekend and it was freak’n fantastic!!!!

3 Comments

Posted in Uncategorized

« Newer Posts - Older Posts »

Categories